saturday marked one whole month since I have been out in the "real world." those four weeks flew by, yet in the midst of it...it seemed like the days loomed, and made no progression.
a little over a month ago, i went on a hike with a dear friend and as we were huffing and puffing our way to the top, we both expressed our concern with conforming to laziness and comfortability. i remember being slightly scared of what life would look like after i graduated. would i be so afraid of the newness of it all, that i would cave and succumb to laziness, like i had promised not to? a theme keeps proving itself evident in my life. day in and day out. patience.
if it were up to me, i would have started work right after graduation to make the transition "easier". if it were up to me, the car i have been saving up for, would already be parked in the garage. there are so many more "if it were up to me's" but my expectations are being torn down in every single way.
and i am okay with it.
i like that there is unfamiliarity and mystery. it keeps me wondering, it keeps me thinking, but most importantly it keeps me humbled. sometimes i just laugh at how different everything is.
this once again proves "he holds everything together." i am thankful for the expectations being torn down, and i am thankful for grace in this whole process. may to the lord be all the glory given. there is something magical about the painful journey of patience.
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