crickets

i have always hated them. i am not sure why. I think as a kid i confused them with mosquitos and their nasty bites they leave, but crickets sound great from afar.

im sitting here, on my porch in colorado and just listening. it is dusk, which happens to be one of my favorite times of day...and i am thinking. i moved here two weeks ago tomorrow and it has been a crazy two weeks. it feels like forever ago i was walking up to security, waving goodbye to all i had ever know and boarding the plane. i remember that feeling. i will never forget. i felt like i was leaving behind a child i was babysitting, and all of the sudden i was asking it to fend for itself. i barely cried, but something felt weird within my heart. i was excited, but wondered what the heck was i doing. i knew it was what i always wanted, and how easily the opportunity arose showed me this was the will of the lord for my life. so i shouldn't have been wondering, right? wrong.  don't get me wrong, i love it here..but there was a part of me that really questioned.

once i arrived to colorado, excitement overwhelmed me. my roommates were more than generous and hospitable with picking me up from here and taking me there. on the second night, we went to go and get my bed off an add on craigslist. my roommate and i had to borrow two trucks from friends, just to bring back all we had wanted to buy from this guy, Will. the what should have taken 2 hours max trip, took over 6 hours. i will never forget it. it was late that night and we had finally picked up the bed. it was around 11:30 and we were dropping off one of the trucks we had used, and we (the four of us) decided to lay on top of the car, on top of the bed. we gazed at the stars and talked for what seemed like hours. it was such a memorable night.

there have been a few more nights like that since then. those moments that you want to savor forever. i guess i would compare colorado to when you first move off to college. you do not know many, if anyone and excitement mixed with mystery floods your emotions. it is all one big question mark. i kind of like it though. it keeps me on my toes, and proves to me that life is much better when you are not living in the comfortable, with crickets or not. :)